Resolution Volume 1

It had been real long since last time I really wrote here. Life had been good to me, but my greed has made me wanted more. So, I've decided to set resolution! New year resolution, 2011 :) For me it is some kind of tradition, you must do it every year :) You can't live without goal, seriously!

1. I won't drink until I get drunk, getting tipsy is the ultimate limit.

2. I will focus on my case laws and articles, I'll read everyday :)

3. I will get my temper On. I will be a good quality tempered-glass :)

4. I'll stop shopping for clothes, as I already have more than enough of them.

5. I will drink Ikea coffee instead of Starbucks'

6. I will take my vitamins and healthy milkshake everyday. wow. they are delicious!

7. Hmm. I will try my best to sweep the floor .. almost every day?

Okay. to be continued. Ciao!

so what is it .

it had been so long and it is really long.
but, the thing is, i had not really changed yet.
everything about me is quite the same.
and sometimes, i really have no idea which of me is me.
if i was just pretending, then why would i care.
if i was just trying to have fun, then why will it matter.
if i think that you were not really something, why am i feeling it so much.
if it is not meant to be, why will it appear for so many times.
and if, it is meant to be, why it never get through.
i think what i want is just something simple. but i confused myself as well.
well. i thought what i want is just something simple.
but i still believe it.
if, if it comes to me, i might just be happy going lucky, and live with it.
but why, it just doesn't happen.
wonder of wonders.
wonder how will it be.
if i miss you, then who are you.

needed

so terrified, of being a match that can't be ignited anymore .
thanks for telling me all that. i thought that you should rephrase though.
i don't care if they are all true or not, they are heart-breaking.
i know i have to get a life, but i need you with me.
motivate me, tap me on my shoulder when i'm smiling to you, signifying that i'm okay.
i need all of you with me.
it is going to be achieved.

get a life

every sadness.

every happiness.

every laughter.

every tear.

every forgiveness.

every surprise.

every celebration.

every depression.

every new-birth.

every funeral.

every beauty.

every resentment.

every realization.

every moment.

every ONE.

GET A LIFE .

Every Single Life Around you

If you have ever cared about it, please don't let any life simply pass you by anymore. You will never know that this life going to bring you the next second, you will never know what will happen next. Life is not just a game, it is more precious and yet fragile than just a game. It's not like a game that you can have a second try after the game is over. Don't only learn how to feel regret, learn how to hold on it. I hate life passing by. I may not get happy, I may not feel satisfied after that, but isn't it sure that anything, anything is better than just letting it pass you by?
Never take someone for granted anymore, because they really worth more than just that. Even if he is a stranger in front of you, why don't you smile at him instead of giving him a strange stare?
Here, I give my deepest condolence. You will be God blessed.
I do not know you well enough, but you are my friend. I thank God, for giving me a lesson, again.
I miss you all, my friends and darlings.
=)

it didn't rain , it poured

Looking at my life ; Looking at the things I've ruined ; Looking at the scars I've caused ; Looking at the dirty spots I've left ; Looking at the wrong I've done , aren't my good deeds way too far to cover them ?

Too afraid to make one more step , Too much mistaken have been made , Too fault to be right .

Not rational enough .

The struggle within is suffocating . If , only if . You gotta guide me . This struggle is so strong , that I don't even have any strength left to cry . It bleeds . It might be better if I burst out with tears . And I just want a minute , in a complete silence , with you .

I can't recognize myself , anymore .

the blog entitled for Mymy

I'm blogging on the bus for you now, so I wish to make it simple, yet sincere. I just want to let you know that I'm really really glad to have someone like you to be part of my life. You literally filled up my life and made it an interesting one. I'm really a lucky one on this earth. Can't wait to meet you again next year, but before that, sincerely want to wish you all the best in your new phase of life! You are always on my mind, my Bff. Love you much. ¦) God bless gao gao !!

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wanted to talk , but

So many things had happened, and everyday I wanted to talk to you because you are someone who is really special to me on this earth. Not blaming at all, but I'm not so happy. Chances to talk isn't rare, but it's different to talk to you face to face than by other manners. I don't think that I'm not treasured, but probably not treasured much enough. You know why I wished to share everything with you? It's because I think that what's important is the every part of my life, not only how will I end up my life in the end. I wished that you are the person who knows my everything. You are my Bff, and this is my definition for 'bff'. I just want you to know that if something has passed, it may not be available later. I treasure you, now.

shouldn't be.

I know I'm being rebellious, but God, what are you trying to tell me again? You can take away whatsoever from my life, but not this. How could I afford to lose this? It's aching. If you want to take it away from me, take me away first. I don't want a life without it. I know I'm rebellious, but I'm not strong enough. I know I'm being bad and doing things according to my own thought, but please don't do this to me. I'm the one who should get this penalty.

happenings post # 1

Life is great. It's not great because it's packed with goodness. It's great because how thrilling, challenging and wonderful it is. You will never know what's coming after this and it's just like the Milk Tray. That's why I love Milk Tray so much. I like the way Daddy God has arranged everything for me so much. Many things had happened and they are uneasy to be written, so let's do them in point form!!

1. How lucky I am to get Dr. Jeya as my English tutor? He is the tutor with 54-year-teaching experience. Oh, thanks God.

2. How lucky I am to be part of the Malaysia Law Conference? It costs 1.2 million just for the rental fees of KLCC. Seriously, I'm feeling awesome to be part of it.

3. I'm going to join the mock trial for the first time and I will hold the role of victim. I'm feeling eager to be part of it, it's fun.

4. Meeting a bunch of great people, this have kept me alive!

5. Getting the chance to stay in this place, I really don't know how to express how grateful I am. This arrangement by God is too good.

6. Daddy God wants me to wake up so early everyday, and because of that I'm going to sleep early every night. He has his purpose on me and I shall obey!

7. Number seven. Thanks Daddy God. I really love you.

here I am JUNIM ♥

This is a blog written by Alexander Leow Kim Wooi at 0138 a.m. on the fifth of July, 2010. This day is his university's orientation day, which means that his law programme will be starting right away! He is feeling very excited, happy, nervous and hyper now. Yes, it's certainly nerve racking for him! He knew that his life will be in a new phase, but he is not too worried, because he knows that God, JuNim is always with him -- no matter which phase of his life! Words can't really express his feelings now, this is such a moment! He is so grateful for everything happened on him, these things are so miraculous. God is awesome in this place. Oh JuNim, please mould me and use me. Let me shine for you. I just want to work for your glory. I'm Yours. ♥ Oh Daddy Lord, I thank you so much that you are always here with me. You are leading me through the seasons.

HERE I AM JUNIM ♥

AMOR ♥

Hmm, I do feel like blogging now. But mean while, I am speechless.

Just wanna say, I treausre you all, friends, buddies, honeys and darlings.

I love both of you mommy and daddy.

Last but not least, I love you, Daddy Lord.

sick

Alexander is sick. He is having torturing headache for two days continuously. He is still sicky now. He is having sore throat and cough. Having running nose sometimes. He was like a dead person when he was attending events. He is so sick. Daddy God, please heal Alexander. I believe, You're my healer. I believe, You're more than enough for me. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

Now I See

Okay, hmm, it'd been days I didn't write a blog here. These days I'm quite stucked with Now I See's program, a program from CGMC, if I'm not mistaken, and it's a christianity program. It seriously filled up my days. I went to Serdang few days ago, went for a prayer meeting, and then a Now I See concert on the following day, at Taylor's lakeside campus. The trip is very benefitial, it was a spiritual journey indeed. Very short duration, but i found that i earned a lot. Oh Daddy Lord, you guid me. Deviate me from temptations please, I'm such a sinful Alexander. And then, during the trip I did think about my tertiary studies a lot. Got to meet Alex Wong, who is a court lawyer for now. Got some helpful information from him, so I think I should just pray for God's guide now, to walk the right path for Him. Oh, I'm still feeling sleepy. ciao!

Love You Daddy God. ♥

p/s: I didn't take much photo during this trip. I did stalk a couple sitting in front of me in the bus. But I think, I'm gonna share that in next post. Be patient =)

I got my tumblr babe

I have a new babe. TUMBLR! woohoo! Tumblr and blogger, I love both. Tumblr is very nice and delighting, blogger is an ease of mind, very cozy zone for me. So, I decided to take both of them. Tumblr is for microbloggy and interests sharing. And blogger? Certainly for blogging. I love you all blogger & tumblr.

Go and have a look at my tumblr. Follow me, make your own tumblr and let me follow you. =) She is so pretty. I think i'll marry her to my blogger.

http://alexanderleow.tumblr.com/

answer

You know what? All I want to know now is, if you are real or not. If you are real, certainly it's something great. However, if everything is just an illusion, I'll tell myself to wake up immediately, without lingering at all. Yea, Cy said that this is shallow. I'm just trying to avoid it, letting it be as shallow as possible. You won't disappoint me, right?

if I can't have you.

If I can't have you. I'm okay with that. I asked myself about this for so many times. Actually, I can't really figure it out. Hmm, I think I will be okay. But, still, have to be frank that, I falled for you. I mean, only if you are the one. Hmm. I don't know. I'm unable to talk properly. Let's just see how far it can take me to. I bet it won't be too far. Indeed, you aren't anything to me, yet. Let's see.

consistency

I don't really desire dramas in my life. I don't like the way you are being. Yes, I know I need to be considerate, I know I should considerate your feeling. But, I really hope that, you do the same thing to me too. Sometimes I really think that I should just let you pass me by. If I did so, I think my life would be easier. At this moment, I should be planning about how my future goes, but you, you conquered my head. You are in my HEAD. Do you understand? All I want is the consistency between you and I. I can give you what you want. So, can you? I'm still relieved, feeling much better now. I always appreciate your existence.

I Love You. But,

Seriously, you are giving me pms. This is so not right. Enjoy your time! Cameron? No, I don't like Cameron anymore! Won't be a place belong to us! You! Go enjoy! I know, there is no promises at all. But, but. Okay, it's very one-sided. I understand very well. I seriously do. This is a very unhealthy infatuation. If you have your decision, if you have your ways of solving matters, then why do you still want to know how do I feel? If you don't think that you want to change even a little bit, then just stop it. I said, the worst ending is still better than what I'm encountering now. Just give it to me. And, seriously, I will thank you.

LOVE HAPPENS

poppysmic.

i'm so tired of the process.

sorry. i want the conclusion.

let's just make a conclusion. as soon as possible.

i'm very not into one-sided infatuation.

so, if you have your answer, let's just make it a beautiful end.

it's okay. accepting the worst decision of yours is definitely better than going through this situation. it's very uneasy. you know that.

YOU

I desired you. I know. I'm clear with it. But, I'm very not okay with it. I want you to know, I heart you, I want you, I just don't want to get away from you. Korek and take my heart away with you, if it can help to prove anything. My life would really suck without you. It's all about you, but do you really know? Darn, I WANT YOU!

especially for gee

he's with me even when i'm sleeping. ♥
i love him as well. ♥

HEART ♥

we're so in love. ♥

GEE & ALEX

This is a blog dedicated for my dear geegee.

I know that you are heading another phase of your life now. So, I just want to wish you all the best.

You may face more obstacles than nice things now, but don't forget that you'll grow LONGER because of them. =) We won't be together for every single moment, but you are always my friend. I won't forget all those happiness we had before. For sure, I won't forget that we will have a vacation when we are capable to spend our own money.

GOD BLESS ♥

MOTHER'S DAY recipe

Mother's Day Recipe:

♥handmade mother's day card

♥a present which you think your mum will need it and love it

♥greeting at midnight twelve

♥cook a meal for her

Wow, I cooked her elbow pasta! I didn't know that I'm such a good cook before, now only I realize. Seriously, the pasta tastes darn nice! She liked it.

I love you MUMMY ♥

See Ya, Satio babe ♥

There is always something that we desired and wanted. We always think that we will be awful without them. We desired it so much until we thought that it is necessary for us. But, seriously, no! For me, I wanted you very much, but, I told myself, I'm okay without you! I know very well that there are many rich people in this world, driving Porsche and staying in the gigantic bungalow, but it's okay, isn't it? Think clearly, some of them desired for just a plain bread so much, they only wished for some clean water to drink, but they don't even get those things. So, Satio, I won't merajuk for you anymore. But, if I get you, I will be happy. =)

Hmm, I'm so flirtatious. lols.

I GOT YOU

Don't stop yourself from being happy!!

Bad things do happen, but have you forgotten all the best parts of your life?

A single word you said to me can cheer me up for the whole day.

A smile from you is enough to make me happy.

Receiving your text once every few days or even few weeks is making me smile.

A nice drink is oh my gosh. How could something so nice exist?

After all, we are so lucky to have You, Daddy Lord. ♥

talk wisely

Do you ever have someone disliking you? No matter who he or she is and no matter we like him or her in person or not, we'll still feel bad about it. Mr. AA, I don't know what I did that had made you dislike me. And if there's really something, I want to apologize for it, sincerely. Because, I do treat you as my friend. Maybe you aren't the best friend of mine, but you are a good friend of mine indeed. We'd been very close before, I don't want us to end up in this way. Daddy, should I talk to him in personal? I remember that one of your teachings is that we should talk and we shouldn't predict. But, Daddy God, please show me how to start the conversation. I just want this thing to become better. I'm not good enough, but having you as my friend is making me feel better about myself. I'm sorry for letting you down.

recipe to be HAPPY

Recipe to be happy:

♥Smile♥

♥Communicate♥

♥Care♥

♥Understanding♥

♥Submission♥

♥Respect♥

♥Content♥

♥Smile again♥

Bravo, Daddy God. Thank you so much. I love Ya.

miracles by Dear Daddy God

Happy Easter Day Dear Father God. The Best Father ever, I Love You always and I have wanted to meet you so much. Thank you for your presence in my life. You made my life a blast! Miracles that you've given me will be always in my mind. They are awesome! You are in my life and that's great!

I want to thank you Father Lord for making my father to change. Maybe he did that because he felt guilty, but it's still great. I was talking to him in a half-slept condition, so the conversation did feel like a dream. And yes, he changed a lot. It's almost not him. Father God did the miracle on Good Friday? I love this Palm Sunday, it had meant so much to me. I love this Good Friday, I felt like my life is not the same anymore. I love this Easter Day, Jesus You are resurrected and You are risen! So lucky am I! Daddy, you mean a lot to me. From countable to uncountable. I'm glad that you finally realized. Thank you daddy. Thank you Father Lord.

STOP CALLING STOP CALLING I DON'T WANNA TALK ANYMORE

Sometimes, we thought that we were being good and giving others a bigger space, trying to make them feel more comfortable. We tried our best to do that and we did feel bad when we have to stop ourselves from calling them or texting them. However, who knows, they changed at this time, without thinking back at all. Things are turning bad and they are becoming awful.

YET, no worries! This is the planning of Father God. BRAVO father!

phew!

It's so hot and I'm drinking hot teh tarik.

It's so unfair but we can't do anything about it.

I'm so shouldn't be here, but I'm still here.

You are so shouldn't do that to me but you did.

Just learn from them.

We are so sinful, but Jesus is still loving us.

So, what should make us feel bad?

anger

When will you get angry?

I get angry when someone I care is treating me like a fool.

I get angry when someone I care is forcing me to do something I don't want to do at all.

I get angry when someone I care is not giving me a damn.

Only because someone I care, I will get angry.

unable

Many have fallen by the edge of the sword; but not so many as have fallen by the tongue.

Ecc 28:18

After roaming the earth for more than eighteen years, we people should have learnt, at least something. We all have our family, at least our father and mother. Some of us are not as lucky as others, they didn't get to spend too much time with their family members. For very sure, father and mother, both of them should be there for their children when their children needed them. None of us in this world can replace the role of parents of others. They are essential.

Actually, what's the role of a father in a family? Traditionally speaking, a father earns money, take care of his wife, talk with his children. A mother will make sure the home is being cleaned everyday, her husband is being taken good care of and she had spent enough time with her children. In between luxurious life and joyful life, which will you choose? It's not really an option though.

I wanted live luxuriously, at the same time happily. I hoped, I wished, I wanted my father to be with me when I need him. My wish is not accomplished. Not even once. He earns money for this family, so do my mother. He is a graduate of university, but did he talk to me nicely? Yea, there's once he did that, when there's something wrong and he tried to do something to get back what he wanted. I do respect you, as a businessman, a successful one. But, do you know that I really didn't feel like you are a father? I feel more depressed when I really can't help myself to feel that. So, maybe it's also my fault? Dad, you did it over and over again. Did you know that I'm just a human being? You didn't know that. You didn't know how fragile or how strong I am. Even thought I'm named as your son, but you never know any single thing about me.

Spm results out. I was so nervous when I open that envelope. I was so nervous when I'm getting ready to tell mummy about my results. But, now only I realized that I never thought of telling you. I was stunned. And I laughed at myself. Where is my father? He isn't dead. He's alive. There are so many people regretting that they didn't treat their father nice enough when their fathers were still alive. And what am I doing here? Taking things for granted and not being appreciative? But, I was more terrified when I found out that, I didn't purposely hide something from you, you just didn't appear in my mind. I'm worried when I realize that you faded out of my mind, with nothing linger. Where are you, father?

cashmere

He logged in his msn, wishing that cashmere would be online. It's great, his dream came true. They had their conversation there and he was being invited to cashmere's place. He refused to do so. He wanted to be there so much though. But,it's still not appropriate to go to someone's house after knowing someone for just a while. It'd been quite a while. They almost chat on msn everyday. Finally, on this day, he accepted cashmere's invitation. Cashmere drove that day. His heart was beating so fast when he saw cashmere's altis stopped in front of his house. He loved the altis, he loved cashmere more. Cashmere smiled at him, greeting him in such a mesmerizing tone. He was stunned, he asked himself how could he be so lucky to meet someone who was so nice? Cashmere isn't perfect, but just everything he ever wanted, someone he will feel comfortable when he is spending time with. Cashmere like to whistle while listening to radio's, he tried not to laugh at it. It's really funny though. Cashmere talks softly. Cashmere like to hold his hands, and squeeze his fingers. Cashmere has a bracelet, a silver-coloured one. Cashmere's smiling always make him feel cozy. He just can't get his eyes off from Cashmere. Cashmere parked the car at the parking lot. Cashmere is an interior designer, he was so captured by Cashmere's place. It indeed looked like a designer's place. He was very attracted. He thought this is what he wanted. Cashmere is just perfect for him. Love, care, laughters, kissess, pleasures, happiness. He got everything from Cashmere. He was so happy. But, everything ended when Cashmere suddenly tell him something one day. He was stunned. After spending few years with cashmere, he was so contented. He never wanted cashmere to leave him. Not until he found out that he couldn't do anything to stop cashmere from leaving.

"I've got a boy friend. He's from... I thought I've told you before. I think we can't meet anymore after this. Take care."

Texting, Calling, Sending email. He tried every single manner to talk with Cashmere. But, everything has ended. Nothing left. Only Cashmere's lips which linger in his mind. Cashmere, do you know that you are so important to me? I pretended to be okay, but I'm not. You've let me learn so much. It's all because of you.

turned me on

what turns me on? HAIRY LEG.

with extremely uncountable bunch of hair, healthy and bushy.

I promise I will stop spending

Mister Alexander Leow, can you stop spending money? You have spent too much lately. How much do you earn monthly? Sifar? Then what are you spending? Money? Wake up, please. You just bought something you don't really need. You GOTTA stop it. Think twice. Or more. You will end up like a brainless spender. Please slap me when I feel like buying something. It will be APPRECIATED.

parting > distance > stronger bond

I love distance. I love parting. They are sweet sorrows. But, hmm. Distance does make our heart grow fonder.

ageing

I used to spend my day running in the theme park without feeling tired. Now, I will choose to sit down in a cafe for the whole day, spending time with my close ones. Literally, I'm not old at all, I'm getting 19 this year and I really don't think that 19 is considered old. But mentally, I'm getting old. I don't like to go for window shopping anymore. I prefer something that people think that they are stuff for the old ones. I like oats now, many people think that they are something for old folks? Whatever, who cares. I only fall for someone that I have a crush with. So, you don't try to tell me we need time to get used to each other. It will never work. Actually, I don't really think that I'm bad tempered, sometimes I can control my temper very well. But, if you tried to ask me to treat you better, you better don't do it. It's nothing but annoying. I decide how I live my life. Jesus is with me. Amen.

alexander leow

What's my personality? I'm completely a weirdo, and I can't help with it. Don't fall for me. You will ruin yourself. Because I could hardly fall for you now. I only fall for things that I can't achieve. This is me. a stupid weirdo.

one day in KL

One day in KL was killing me. The traffic congestion, the polluted air, the crowded walkway, the busy street, they terrified me. But there is still one thing that cheer me up, the mall! Duh, it's bad I can't get to shop. I don't know what did I actually do there, it was still a nice Monday. It was hot though. The only thing we bought -- breadstory! They are delighting ♥

BreadStory's promotion -- buy 3 free 1, so we bought eight breads. I know it's funny.
My dinner place, pricey, common food.

I forgot the shop's name, they promote the three colour milk tea, it tastes the same with those normal one. But this shop serves really nice fried chicken. Really nice.

The big house I went to. Trust me, the residence is huge.

your desire

A toddler opened the lollipop's wrapper and his mouth smiled widely. The smile is so innocent. He smiled because he loved the thing that is given by God. He didn't know that God arranged other things for him, which is obstacles that will strengthen him. He dropped the lollipop accidentally and his mum threw it away. He cried, because he was sad. When we are eighteen, we will be sad of losing a mobile phone. When we were eight months aged, we would be sad of losing candy. We grow, and at different stages of life, we desired for different things. We want good things to be in our life, but God, He is always so different, He gives us bad things as well. Because He knows that, eating too much candies will be bad to our teeth. He knows that when we lose something we treasure a lot, we will realize that we shouldn't take things in our life for granted. Everything in our life is arranged by our God, for our good. If He is always with us and never abandon us, why should we still be worrying and feeling dismayed? He is great and awesome. We, will live happily, because He looked after us, He look after us and He will look after us.

sansan's birthday breakfast

best birthday cake ever.
best friend forever ever. precious moment.
sansan in the HOLE.

shy kengee in the HOLE.

Today is a big day for my bff. She looked, hmm, mature now. And yes, she should look mature since she will become a doctor so soon. Seven or eight years later? Everything is going on so fast. I can still remember I went to her birthday party on year 2004, when we were really so young. What more can I say? She is really someone i treasure. She filled my life with laughters, tears, angers and bizarre acts. For sure, things weren't perfect. But this is why it looks nice. This is also one reason I never feel that any scars on me looked bad. They are all very LEXIOUS stuff. From thirteen to nineteen, you are always in my life. And this will continue to roll like a snow ball, which will sparkle under the sun. Duh, malaysia doesn't snow. Happy birthday sansan!