shouldn't be.

I know I'm being rebellious, but God, what are you trying to tell me again? You can take away whatsoever from my life, but not this. How could I afford to lose this? It's aching. If you want to take it away from me, take me away first. I don't want a life without it. I know I'm rebellious, but I'm not strong enough. I know I'm being bad and doing things according to my own thought, but please don't do this to me. I'm the one who should get this penalty.