wanted to talk , but

So many things had happened, and everyday I wanted to talk to you because you are someone who is really special to me on this earth. Not blaming at all, but I'm not so happy. Chances to talk isn't rare, but it's different to talk to you face to face than by other manners. I don't think that I'm not treasured, but probably not treasured much enough. You know why I wished to share everything with you? It's because I think that what's important is the every part of my life, not only how will I end up my life in the end. I wished that you are the person who knows my everything. You are my Bff, and this is my definition for 'bff'. I just want you to know that if something has passed, it may not be available later. I treasure you, now.

shouldn't be.

I know I'm being rebellious, but God, what are you trying to tell me again? You can take away whatsoever from my life, but not this. How could I afford to lose this? It's aching. If you want to take it away from me, take me away first. I don't want a life without it. I know I'm rebellious, but I'm not strong enough. I know I'm being bad and doing things according to my own thought, but please don't do this to me. I'm the one who should get this penalty.