needed

so terrified, of being a match that can't be ignited anymore .
thanks for telling me all that. i thought that you should rephrase though.
i don't care if they are all true or not, they are heart-breaking.
i know i have to get a life, but i need you with me.
motivate me, tap me on my shoulder when i'm smiling to you, signifying that i'm okay.
i need all of you with me.
it is going to be achieved.

get a life

every sadness.

every happiness.

every laughter.

every tear.

every forgiveness.

every surprise.

every celebration.

every depression.

every new-birth.

every funeral.

every beauty.

every resentment.

every realization.

every moment.

every ONE.

GET A LIFE .

Every Single Life Around you

If you have ever cared about it, please don't let any life simply pass you by anymore. You will never know that this life going to bring you the next second, you will never know what will happen next. Life is not just a game, it is more precious and yet fragile than just a game. It's not like a game that you can have a second try after the game is over. Don't only learn how to feel regret, learn how to hold on it. I hate life passing by. I may not get happy, I may not feel satisfied after that, but isn't it sure that anything, anything is better than just letting it pass you by?
Never take someone for granted anymore, because they really worth more than just that. Even if he is a stranger in front of you, why don't you smile at him instead of giving him a strange stare?
Here, I give my deepest condolence. You will be God blessed.
I do not know you well enough, but you are my friend. I thank God, for giving me a lesson, again.
I miss you all, my friends and darlings.
=)

it didn't rain , it poured

Looking at my life ; Looking at the things I've ruined ; Looking at the scars I've caused ; Looking at the dirty spots I've left ; Looking at the wrong I've done , aren't my good deeds way too far to cover them ?

Too afraid to make one more step , Too much mistaken have been made , Too fault to be right .

Not rational enough .

The struggle within is suffocating . If , only if . You gotta guide me . This struggle is so strong , that I don't even have any strength left to cry . It bleeds . It might be better if I burst out with tears . And I just want a minute , in a complete silence , with you .

I can't recognize myself , anymore .

the blog entitled for Mymy

I'm blogging on the bus for you now, so I wish to make it simple, yet sincere. I just want to let you know that I'm really really glad to have someone like you to be part of my life. You literally filled up my life and made it an interesting one. I'm really a lucky one on this earth. Can't wait to meet you again next year, but before that, sincerely want to wish you all the best in your new phase of life! You are always on my mind, my Bff. Love you much. ¦) God bless gao gao !!

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wanted to talk , but

So many things had happened, and everyday I wanted to talk to you because you are someone who is really special to me on this earth. Not blaming at all, but I'm not so happy. Chances to talk isn't rare, but it's different to talk to you face to face than by other manners. I don't think that I'm not treasured, but probably not treasured much enough. You know why I wished to share everything with you? It's because I think that what's important is the every part of my life, not only how will I end up my life in the end. I wished that you are the person who knows my everything. You are my Bff, and this is my definition for 'bff'. I just want you to know that if something has passed, it may not be available later. I treasure you, now.

shouldn't be.

I know I'm being rebellious, but God, what are you trying to tell me again? You can take away whatsoever from my life, but not this. How could I afford to lose this? It's aching. If you want to take it away from me, take me away first. I don't want a life without it. I know I'm rebellious, but I'm not strong enough. I know I'm being bad and doing things according to my own thought, but please don't do this to me. I'm the one who should get this penalty.