kamsahamida JU NIM

Open the eyes of my heart, LORD.

I want to see you.

Kam sa ha mi da, JU NIM.

expiry date

I love chocolate. I bought them. I kept them. I wished to eat them slowly. I decided to spoil myself with them, slowly. But, I forgot that they will expire. I thought I'm able to do many things by myself. No, I'm just incapable. I know I should leave them all to you because you are there.

Where are you when I need you the most?

Do you feel it when I feel bad?

Do you understand it when I say nothing at all?

Jesus, I'm nothing without you.

I'm sorry, Lord, for what I've made.

I hate you

It's not my fault. It's your fault. I've get enough of this. I don't want to be here. Let me go. You, shut up. I really hate you now.

Do you know who are you? Why you have to say those words?

you you you

I saw you and you ruined my day. It supposed to be a nice day, at least without anything that make me feel disastrous. But you, you appeared. I said, just get lost. We will fade out in each other's life. How could I do that? I'm so stupid. You are in my life, influencing my daily life. I actually decided to post my old town's coffee and pizza i had today, and I found that I can't do any of them now. You just ruined my day. I don't want to see you. Maybe, I want. Talk to me.

the hotate outing

A great outing with CY today. At first we went to cafe for his vacant. I hope that he can get this job, so I think we will meet very often then since the cafe is just next to my shop. Then we went to parkson. Yea we bought something for someone. Hope the someone will like it. I think it means a lot. I bought a pen for my mummy as well. I think the mechanical pencil is nice with the words craved on it. I hope that mummy will like it as her birthday present. It will be something that will assist her in her dream. After that we went to Sushi King for lunch. We enjoyed our bentos and the pricey COOKED scallop sushi.

the very pricey hotate sushi.

we enjoying our kodomos

beloved sansan

It was a happy outing with sansan today, we didn't do much things. We went to the cafe and 100Yen and this outing is about drinking and eating continuously. Both of us are poor though. We spent our very last ringgits for our stomach. Whee. That's something happy. It was a lot of chatter today, and this is how we usually spend our time together. I don't know if we talked things repeatedly, at least we don't end up in silence. But I think, if we end up in silence, it will still feel good. They said that when there is love, we will feel good even without any conversations. Sansan, strive for your dream ♥

precious tudor gold

This was given by CY when i'm sad. Everything given by CY should be treasured because he is seriously not generous. That's why i treasured it. I kept it for so long and I ate it just now. It didn't taste as nice as I thought it would. But it reminded me of our friendship, how precious it is. In my life, he is a special one. I told him i wanted to invent a pillow or bolster stuff that feels like his chubby stomach. It will be so comfortable. Those fat ones always make me feel close. Missing you, CY.