so what is it .

it had been so long and it is really long.
but, the thing is, i had not really changed yet.
everything about me is quite the same.
and sometimes, i really have no idea which of me is me.
if i was just pretending, then why would i care.
if i was just trying to have fun, then why will it matter.
if i think that you were not really something, why am i feeling it so much.
if it is not meant to be, why will it appear for so many times.
and if, it is meant to be, why it never get through.
i think what i want is just something simple. but i confused myself as well.
well. i thought what i want is just something simple.
but i still believe it.
if, if it comes to me, i might just be happy going lucky, and live with it.
but why, it just doesn't happen.
wonder of wonders.
wonder how will it be.
if i miss you, then who are you.